A personal journal. So, this is real life…
I decided to share a part of my career journey on my blog. I was a bit uncertain if to write this or not, but I hope it inspires someone and encourages you to work hard towards your personal goals. Whatever your personal goals may be. (It’s a bit lengthy, on so fasten your seat belt!)
I’m nowhere near where I want to be, but one step closer. Every step counts…
A little over 3 years ago, if anyone had told me I would ever go back to wanting to become an accountant, I would have laughed in their face. Like really?
No part of me likes studying. I don’t think I ever studied throughout my university or school days. I listened in class, attendance was 100%, took notes and skimmed through the textbook before exams. Memorised what I could and paid a little more attention to stuff I found difficult. This didn’t work for every module, I had 1 re-sit in my second year of uni which deterred me from school and studying. It was so traumatic for me, it felt like the worst thing that could happen. I think I developed a fear of failure, could not wait for uni to be over and done with. Eager to finish uni and do something more fun with my life. That was back in 2006, I was only 20, little did I know.
After my Accounting degree, I worked in retail, customer services to be precise – from shop floor, sales assistant to supervisor to e-commerce customer service supervisor, then moved into fashion PR. I convinced myself that that was what I wanted to do. Moving from customer services to PR felt like an upward movement in the right direction but it didn’t work out. I left my first PR job in November 13 and was hanging in limbo for about 8 months, not really knowing what to do next.
I did a bit of this and that, but PR is a fast paced job, a few months out and could already be off your ball game. That was also the time that digital media saw so much growth and everything was moving at such a fast pace. I could not catch up and my passion was dying as time passed. It even got worse with the next ‘pr job’ which I did for only a month. On CV, my experience probably looked good but I did struggle to nail another PR role.
Retrospectively, I genuinely didn’t want to go back to PR, but I still wanted to work in fashion. Since I had convinced myself that that was what I wanted to do, I felt like I was giving up on something and not knowing what next was a bit scary. With no experiences to go into anything else apart from customer services or PR. I did some soul searching during my 8 months of unemployment, and I had the opportunity to work on my blog and social media. Involuntary full-time blogger. It’s the best thing I could have ever done for my blog. That was when I finally started seeing some growth.
I finally decided to go back to everything I had spent almost 8 yrs running away from. Of course, this made my parents very happy. Bearing in mind I was an international student and they paid about 8K per year for me to do this degree!
3 years after leaving PR, I now work as an accountant. I had to start all over again. I started as an intern and within 3 months of my internship I found a full-time job – my fast learning skills came to play. I’ve climbed a couple of steps up the ladder in the short while. The best part of it is that I’ve worked with the best team and people since I started my new career path.
Now, the very ambitious Banke emerged again, being an accountant for me, is ok, but why stop at that? Why not become certified or chartered – reach the peak of my career while I can. I decided I needed this challenge not only for the opportunities it will present, but for my self-confidence. I needed to reassure myself that I had made the right career move. After many years of being off the field, I needed something to knock my confidence back in, I felt a little rusty.
Though my degree granted me a few exemptions from all the papers I need for my full qualification, passing my first exam is potentially one of the best feelings I’ve had in a long time. I sat my paper in December. The 3 months of preparation for just 1 exam was so bloody emotional (so sorry to all the amazing people that had to cope with me). I had panic attacks, I questioned my decision, I questioned my blog which had nothing to do with anything, I hated the things I loved including my blog. I was just all over the show!! The month wait for the result was almost as painful too 😂.
My blog connects me to my passion which is fashion… and, I can occasionally pour my heart out like I’ve done in this post. It also makes me feel connected to a different world, and I haven’t lost my soul to working 9-5. I’m one step closer to becoming a certified chartered accountant which gives me a different kind of soul satisfaction. Not the most exciting career, but I think I’ll stick around for a few more years…
I’ve worked hard and prayed even harder, but when I finally let go of the life I planned and accepted a new one, I finally feel like I’m in a place where no longer have to work so hard but work smarter and everything will fall into place. Working smart is something I learned in the last couple of years from my CFO :).
I GENUINELY feel like I’ve got best of both worlds and equally as open to every opportunity my blog presents!
Link to outfit in SHOP